Deceptive Personality

I need to find a deeper meaning
The fire within my soul
Eternal flame, burning brightly
A flame of pain so cold

The world is such an empty place,
Filled with lies and mistakes
And now I wonder if it’s worth it
Happiness seems so fake

I have so much, and yet its nothing
I’m rich with no wealth
I used to live and now I’m dying
But I’m not killing myself

My heart is in a grave decaying
It’s left all alone
I wish it had some company
From my skin and bone

These cuts and burns on my skin
Are just a sign of hope.
I hope to send my brain and body
To a place where I can cope

The train of death, ever approaching
But this train isn’t gray
It seems that if I had the courage
It’d brighten the day

Where did all the fun disappear to?
The life filled with love
So now I’m bending to my knees
And asking God above

People don’t understand me
Or what I’m going through
I need strength from a force
Much greater than you

So step back and let me breathe
Soon you will find
Life is more than superficial
Stop listening to your mind